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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Tuesday, December 7, 2010

ON SECOND THOUGHT, IT JUST GOT WORST. It was horrible. I hate myself for believing that "saying sorry so everything will be okay" shitt. NO! IT'S NOT! I do not know how much longer I can deal all the bullshit coz I have had enough of it. I'm not saying because I want to be known as always RIGHT, but hey!, I do own some feelings. You're a human, then how about me? Am I your mat? I don't care whatever shitt you're going to do after reading this or whatsoever. Nothing will be the same! You're too stubborn to listen to anyone. STUBBORN, I say! The whole world does not revolves around you! You need two people to get this work! You told me you wanna be independent?! SO AM I! You compliment me about the things I've done after all the disastrous things I went through but it seems that I have yet to fight for more. Say whatever you want, tell me I've changed. Just say it okay, coz whatever that has been typed here really cool me down. You wanted me too chill, SO THIS IS MY WAY! It was stupid how my mind has always been about you and how I don't need anyone else. I finally learn what's the meaning of regret. I should have not trusted you, YOU WERE A FAKE! You and your fabricating tales can just fuck off. You can't even show some sympathy for me! Not even for my feelings! You told me that I'm hard to handle? Let me tell ya babe, YOU'RE JUST INFINITE HARDER TO HANDLE. My impression towards something, my thoughts about something, my expression towards something will ALWAYS be a big NO to you. You get angry at me for whatever I say. You get pissed off every time I expressed out my opinions and you dare demand an explaination of why people don't tell you things?! Dude, JUST LOOK AT YOURSELF. Do you know that you're a joke to others? You criticized me, you're the reason why I don't believe in my dreams and my wants! Look how strong you are and I'm a foolish to let you win. No one will understand, not even you and surprisingly, YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND. Fuck it! I don't know what else to say to you. I kept giving in, kept falling to my knees though I'M FUCKING PISSED OFF AT YOU! We are no ordinary people but fuck it lah. No words could really describe what I'm feelin'. You made me hate you, pissed off at ya and I feel like punching and kicking your dick! KAU SERIOUSLY TAK TAHU SABAR! KAU INGAT APE?! AKU TAK FAHAM KE PE?! SEMUE ORANG SAME SIAKK! You people just make me sick! SICK! SICK! SICK! I really want to move out from this country like ASAP! I wanna move to KL and forget everyone or better yet, I JUST WANT TO LEAVE THIS CRUEL WORLD! ALL GUYS ARE THE SAME, ALL SLUTS ARE BITCHES AND EVERY SHITT KEEPS REPEATING! NO ONE REALLY LEARN FROM HIM/HER LESSON. I'm tired of all this shitt! Aku sakit hati pun kau tak heran. Handphone kau lagi penting perr! abeh aku?! I JUST CAN'T STOP CRYING! AKU CENGENG KAN?! BIAR UHH! AKU KAN MEREPEK!!!! I guess only god knows how my heart ache. Who would bother ask about me anymore? Who would want to be with me? I'm a loser, I'm just a pain in the ass. People LEAVE me for someone better and so be it! Penat siakk! Aku nak marah kau pun, berat siak hati aku! Kau tau nak marah aku aje! kau ingat, kite ni dalam pertandingan pekik/ marah per?!

Original version of Just A Dream
I was thinking about her, thinking about me.
Thinking about us, what we're gonna be?

Your FUCKING SHITT VERSION
I was thinking about me, thinking about me.
Thinking about ME, WHAT I'M GONNA BE?!

Behind all this, after counting till hundred + wash my face for six times, I guess I'm okay. Forget about it. Don't you ever regret with what you've done. Don't you ever regret with what I've done. Toy me all you want coz one day, it will be the last you ever see me. Let's just see the changes that I'll bring to ya soon. I loathe ya.