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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Thursday, December 24, 2009

Current time is 1219am. In the cyber cafe with mum. I have panda eyes. even my panda eyes have panda eyes. Morning was such a disaster. That bitch / slut / flirtatious idiot stole something and dare to kick my f-cking door. was super mad but it seems like no one understands me. Its I'm standing alone with no weapon against the world. Its hurtful enough to realized that people are always one sided instead of realizing the facts but the worst is realized that the people you cared, don't really cared about you. This really teaches me something and that is to never trust people that much. I'm taking the blame for one's mistake and no one even bothered to asked how i was doing except dearest. Maybe, I'm not alone with the help of love, but still i find it a bit unsatisfied. i have to be strong to understand what's going to happen and see if my predictions were right. I'm still a kid going to be a true teenager and i need to get up on my knees by myself but it doesn't mean that i deserved to be ill treated. When one is angry with something, it doesn't mean that one hates the other. I did that for a reason and i wisely chose that way. you're IQ is not the same as an eight year old. you're turning 15 next year and all you can think about is that stupid website of yours till you don't even give a f-cking damn about the bills? i kept that wireless thingy in my wallet and when i woke up, i suspected that something was wrong and my prediction was true. you did stole it from me without asking me even though I've told u a billion times not to use it and further more, you hide the laptop inside a box? how stupid do you think i am? people thinks that I'm the bad guy just because i prohibit you from getting near the laptop and you're so nice because of what? ohh yea, you're nice with that ohh so 'soothing' language of yours. all i heard is 'you pig, you ccb, you MF'. is that the best you could do you MF Wannabe? a kick at the door ? 'tiam' ? mepeks sial. pkai taik aku letak kn lagik bagos. so f-cking furious right now. So i ran to my mum instead of home. i don't need to run just to see who's going after me coz nobody does that. what's the use. I've brought 'sialan' to the house. So that was morning.
In the afternoon, went swimming with love at sengkang. okay luhhhs. i love the jacuzzi. haha. but something went wrong for a minute but everything was resolved. Then bus-ed back to yishun and then cabbed to Mum's working place. Mum finished her shift at 1030pm and we went to have dinner with mum's best guyfriend from secondary school. i wished my friendship would be like my mum's. While mum was talking and chit-chatting with her friend, me on the other had was on the phone with love. was tired and my body's aching like one of a kind. gosh, I'm missing you already bby. we talked about so many things and I'm so stupidly blind to realized that you're what i need just to make me cool off. thanks dear.
My plans for tomorrow. go home at 830am and then out again for a jog with boyf. but i don't feel like going home. i don't feel the feelings of home within me. i don't even know where's my true home is. I don't think i would be sleeping today so anyone to accompany me, text me. haishh. okay. nothing to blogged .
just give me some time. give me hope. fulfill my dreams.

-meluat sakk..